Sophitified

2007-01-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

right.
i just realised today's the fifteen of january
and just like that i've got by 15 days of 2007 with me still writing the date as 2006 -.-
fineeeeee.

and just like that i've survived 15 days, of 2007.
and 1/24 of 2007 has just flew by. ahhh sheesh what have i been doing?!

2007-01-13T09:54:00.000+08:00

so why this plunging feeling again?
hmmmmm yes i have been blogging regularly despite blog entries being unable to be seen.
and as i look around (for the millionth time), i came to this little self realisation that i'm not really growing.
what im writing now is like what i wrote in sec1/sec2 (minus the xxx and zzzz though -.-) and my train of thoughts have just stopped at a station and remained there, without moving off again.
Perhaps what had made me grow were setbacks and disappointments, thus leading me to learn.
Now, I've learnt how to get over and let ago of setbacks and EVERYTHING, hmm yes pretty much everything such as relationships made and all, really quickly, as not to get hurt by things not working out or anything. I don't feel like trying to hold on to everything, then finding out that they were all slipping away from me right from the start. Hmm so much so that I've become an extremely cautious person, and I only take things at the present. Really, I am that cynical. -.-

And mind you, take things at the present is a far cry from living the present.

AUGHH. Why everytime I try and blog about amusing happenings in my life I end up rattering and rambling on with my nonsense.

never mind, at least i'll end with a interesting quote.

" If you want to be happy, then you shall have to be engaged."

hurr okay.

2007-01-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

hello,
long time since i was here.
reaaally, motivation sophia, motivation.

andand, although this blog has been running for about 2 years plus now.
and im a ridiculous level of sec4 now (insert gasp) and i dont feel any bit like one.
409 sounds strange x.x

my zest for blogging is dying, but there is no way in any moment soon that im going to close this blog.
it holds too much memories for me.
andand if i decide to blog again, i wil be quite devastated if my url is taken.
although i do admit that it sounds stupid.
hur.

2006-12-04T14:22:00.000+08:00

righhht. so the stupid internet isn't working at home, so im using the compt in school right now. actl, i didn't just come to school for the internet lah. but since im here, might as well blog.

but honestly, if i stay at home the whole day without the internet, i'll just like rot and stone, and play quadrapop all day on my handphone and trying to beat my own high score -.-

wait a minute.

that is precisely what i have been doing for the past few days.

ARGHHH.

boohoo, i need my internet.

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2006-10-22T14:38:00.000+08:00

alrights i am rather peeved.
i mean, 2 weeks since my liberation and i dont really feel rather free.
tons of PSL, regional CIP stuff and now Geog SIA proposal for 2007 ):
besides, it really does not help that i have headaches and backaches most of the time.
righttt, and i bought Goong last week but barely watched half of the vcds yet.

rawrrr i want to go bowling and iceskating.

2006-10-16T01:29:00.000+08:00

you know, when i think that everything is over and i can just sit down there and watch my goong happily, it just does not happen this way.

rawrrr.

and i really dont want to return to school tommorow and get back all the dreaded papers.

2006-10-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

ditto the previous message.
killer math tml.

but at least it's the last day tml.
that's pretty much a good consolation.
yippyyays!

however,
i can be woken up from this self-deluded blissful reverie when i receive my papers :(

2006-10-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

OH JOY.
I AM GOING TO BE SO SO DEAD FOR MATH.
dying, dead.

gone.

2006-09-27T10:02:00.000+08:00

boo. little strange discoveries that i make now and then.
it's like everything doesn't seem like what is it.

i am only amused, right?
(yeah) rightttt.

i do realise that i comfort and console myself too much. like my recent 'figuring it out' piece, it's more of a essay directed to myself.

and i find myself deproving (if there is such a word actl) in everything i do. Academic wise, of course. Piano, just look at my recent piano exams. AND i cant seem to photoshop anymore too. I feel that i've no inspiration, no technique.

Ballet...hmm. The point of me knowing that im flatfooted just gives me an excuse not to be motivated and work hard. In the past, if i thought im unable to do sth, i would blame it on my imcompetance and work on it. Now, i'll shrug it off and accuse my falt-footedness of being the culprit. In that case, i would much much much rather living in the false assumption that i'm not flat footed if it makes me work hard.

Hoho, but whatever this is, im still gonna take up jazz or salsa (erm perhaps not) or hiphop after the trashy EOYs. Andand, if i have the chance, i want to take up drumming too. But the whole i-want-to-learn-drumming thing had started since end of sec1 and i havent achieve anything fruitful yet. So i just suppose that the whole drumming business shall remain as a somewhat intangible matter.

alrighhhhhhhhts.
TRIGO awaits.
Such joy, isn't it?

erh under construction

2006-09-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello.
i am not dead. Not yet at least (:
with EOYs coming up, i think i will soon.

yay this shall constitute as a post
byebye

2006-09-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
piano exam was such a flop alrights.
the examiner actually asked me to stop playing my third piece.
this is how bad it was.
but it's kinda sad, in the sense that the part i stopped at was the one i usually struggle with and the fellowing lines sounded quite nice actl.
but i didnt get to play it.
arh wells.

2006-09-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

alrightyys, piano exam is tml.
or today.
erm, whichever, maybe today when i finish this post.
so, hopefully i'll almost pass and i'll be contented alrds.
cus im not deserving to pass but i do feel that i deserve certain marks for my incessant banging these days.
or else i'll be better off mugging for EOYs instead.
err, what logic that sentence made?
neverminds.

so tml shall be liberation! ♥
in other words, liberation to mug.
but that will be aft i chng my blogskin, arh yes.

i shall persereve!
for the sake of my lovely samsoon tml at 10pm
by then the wretched piano exams will be wayyyyyyy overrrrrrrr.

2006-09-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

HAIIIIIIIII.
should have kept a diary for p3 and p6.
i seriously dont rmb much.
althought at that may if i have kept a diary then i would be writing seemingly senseless daily affairs, it would be good now to read it.

okay the piano beckons, more later

2006-08-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

i think everyone would probably freak out if i started whining about missing hiphop again.
but then, I really still do.
gah, i can imagine zee going " huh you still miss hiphop ah?".
so i shld just await the end of EOYS.
thenthen it'll be lessons at studio wu!
<3!

2006-08-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

i can be too caught up in my own lala-land at times, and be so rubbishy oblivious to things that are looming around me.
I truly am an imcompetent piece of shit, and i don't deserve all the oppotunities and chances I've been given.

trying to do everything at one go piles up to doing nothing.

schoolwork; everything has been a mess and my results stinking so badly.
piano; exams in 3 lessons time and my third piece is unspeakable. great.
ballet; missed 4 lessons. what is this?!
byte; i suck as contact node.
PSGL; i've been procrastinating in everything I do, and i keep forgetting stuff. Esp in SAC comm, I've let many down with the SAC anniversary coming up and me still being confused at everything.

i'm a lousy, terrible person.
and im given more than what i should receive.

2006-08-11T20:50:00.000+08:00

although this may be ridiculously late,
thank you everyone who had gave me such warm birthday well wishes! Andand, thanks for all the surprises!
All these have definitely made my birthday a greatt one.
and yes i do feel loved! <3

sometimes, its really so much better to count your blessings than to harp over all those you missed, erh no?

2006-08-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

although it will be my 15th birthday shortly in about an hour.
i'm kind of dreading growing old.
birthdays doesn't seem as endearing as before.

such cynicism.

2006-07-31T02:46:00.000+08:00

erh, it's like 2.40am now.
and what am i doing here at such a lovely hour.
actl, i dont really know -.-

OH YES ZEE,
erh i know you're reading this la.
when do you want to watch pirates?
i'm afraid it will end up like she's the man
and we'll hav no movie to watch agn ):

hmm, anyways sometimes i feel that i'm being like overly sensitive?
so i tell myself: " erh stop that, you're thinking too much".
then then, i 不要想太多，and i'll feel that i'm being insensitive and oblivious/ignorant to my surrondings.
either way, it isn't very healthy, is it? >.<

and seriously, talking to myself quite often like just now, isn't too.

bleh.

2006-07-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

yes i'm finally blogging aft 38567039650394 days.
so, cheers to myself.

the main point is, IT'S THURDAYS, THURDAYS NIGHT. AND WHAT AM I DOING AT HOME?
I should be at hiphop now, no?
and now i'm suffering from severe withdrawal symtoms now.
and im terribly upset that i can't remember the steps to all 11 lessons.
gah, don't you ever dare to stop me from continuing aft the EOYs.
pft, and i shall go take jazz and lyrical too! <3

hmm, actl i think this skin is not very pretty.
andand, i think that my blog is still on hiatus i suppose.

and on a random note too, sabbaticals are quite okay.
shanghai today was yummmyyy.
guo tie, rou mian jing, jiu niang were delicious.
and lu bing hua during cl movies was super touching.
everyone were like crying/tearing.

yesyes and dance was heaps of fun too.
<3 dance!

2006-07-09T16:04:00.000+08:00

ballet exam was a huge horrible disappointment.
sometimes i start to question my intentions of persisting to take ballet even though i am NOT improving.
so what for the driving passion? im even somewhat doubtful about it. but sometimes it's really not what you like that counts. if passion could break through it all, life would be one whole fairytale.

2006-07-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

It takes a crane to build a crane
it takes two floors to make a story
it takes an egg to make a hen
it takes a hen to make an egg
there is no end to what I’m saying

It takes a thought to make a word
and it takes some words to make an action
it takes some work to make it work
it takes some good to make it hurt
it takes some bad for satisfaction

...

It takes a night to make it dawn
and it takes a day to make you yawn brother
it takes some old to make you young
it takes some cold to know the sun
it takes the one to have the other

...

And it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
and it takes some fears to make you trust
it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished

It takes some silence to make sound
and it takes a loss before you found it
and it takes a road to go nowhere
it takes a toll to make you care
it takes a hole to make a mountain

[Taken from Jason Mraz's Life is wonderful]

Arh, really nice lyrics.

2006-06-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

Trigonometry:

sdjhadlkgkadhlbverkutbclkbdag ???

School life:

@#*(!*)(*&*%&*$#&%(@%&#&@!

2 ghastly days of school and im already like this.
woohoo. 50 times of this to go before nov/dec holidays.
fabulous. how great (:

2006-06-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

the word tsubasa intrigues me alot now.
gah.
how i want wings to soar and fly away.

my heart is heavy.
my mind is larden with burdens i don't even know of yet.
i don't want to anticipate any further.

freakkkk.
to put it curtly,
I HATE THE THOUGHT OF GOING TO SCHOOL TML

i have a whole lot of negativity stored inside me.
all that angst x.x

to all who have tagged at my board, thanks alot! it's quite comforting to see tags even though my blog is in a rather dead state.

righhht.
now to get my mind off schl before I explode.

2006-06-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

那天夜里，我抬起了头，往天上一望。夜空没有数不尽的星星，没有月亮，只有一颗星。虽然只是一颗黯然发光的星星，但我可以肯定的是，那晚我只看到它。夜空里只有它那一颗星星，我心想，它不寂寞吗？也许，也许说星星它以前不是一个人而已，也许是它与伙伴分离了，也许是还没找到自己的归属。。。这有太多太多的也许，但是，那夜里，确实是它一个人。

一颗星星不代表它寂寞，不代表它一定要人陪。孤单不是寂寞，寂寞是心里的一种渴望，孤单只是数目的代表。我想说，与其和自己格格不入的人在一起强迫自己符合别人的期待，不如像那颗星星一样，自己在黑暗的舞台上表演。没有配角，没伴舞，没有音乐，更没有月亮的欣赏。自己悠然自得的表演也是一种幸福。

看到那孤单的星星，我感触良多。我和那星星不一样，我已不是颗星星，我已找到自己的归属，自己的星河。我只是想说，孤单不是孤僻，它不代表什么，它只是说你还没找到自己的归属，归属可以是你的星河，你的流星，你的星群。我想，有一天我再抬起头时，那星星应该也找到自己的天地，自己的归属。

taken from one of my very very very old posts.
and once again, i have to say (almost regretfully) that i did not write this.
cus im not possibly that good in chinese and perhaps not deep enough to be able to come up with such a thought-provoking piece.
credits go to sis's friend whom i think, wont be reading this.
but thanks anyways (:

2006-06-16T18:35:00.000+08:00

the way people are changing so drastically,
~~it's quite scary~~
it's terrifying actually.

but isn't this how it works?
silly me imagines that everything remains the same.
just like old days

i'm just being oblivious and ignorant.
and i ought to shake myself awake.
everyone is moving on.

just that, i'm terrified by the transformation.
it's not the i-havent-seen-you-in-a-million-years-and-you-changed kind.
it happened gradually, just that i choose to be dumb and pretend it's still the same.
and more often than not, the reality hits me.
but i just unable to shrug the mentality that nothing have changed.
and the main point is, that fear of mine.

maybe i'm still there for you,
but the point is do you still need it?

undenibly, i've changed too.
something had, of course, happened to this annoyingly blissful looking girl.

i think i shall end this at that before it seems irritatingly emo.
x.x

much as i can relate myself better when i'm typing,
the computer seems insensitive at times too.

2006-06-13T14:32:00.000+08:00

gah.
i hate revelations.
the way people step in and out of your life.

sometimes, you just want to get out of here.
and be whisked off to your lala-land where everything goes your way.
you'll be tempted to escape.
the grass on the other side seems to be a whole lot greener, doesn't it?

but if this is what you've chosen, just stick with it.
things don't really go your way all the time.
so just bear with it.

and the grass thing.
who knows, maybe it's just an illusion.
when you get to the other side.
it isn't that green as it seems afterall.
and you'll notice "hey, why does my previous side look so green suddenly?"

this is just another round of convincing-myself conversation.
please ignore.

2006-06-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

i miss krabi!
the yummylicious food.
the view from the peak of the hill.
my darling cement tree with my initials engraved on it.
the lovely stream.
taking the lorry or the bus to everywhere.
my matted hair after a lorry ride.
both bungalows!
washing the toilets everynight.
SINGING!
chang chang chang!
bananas- our gluttony habits!
apples and chiku too!
THAI BORDER POLICE
THE THAI BUDDIES!
Boonitay! Eerling! Shiao wen!

oh let me go back.

on 31st may
we all wore hongzi
and went to nongthalaywittaya school
we played the ball games
and all had great fun
although the water made all of us wet

and on the 1st of june
we tried to scrub our signboards clean
but in the end it broke into two
we all felt very sad
but ranger said its okay
we can always fix it back again

we want to thank everyone for the great time that we had
the times we shared precious we will not forget
and in the end we have made many special new thai friends
we will always treasure these friendships

singapore nongnong
tried to go downhill
she was scared she went "ah"
red ranger rushed down
and said: don't be sad
take my hand TRUST ME i will help you down
our thaifriends helped us lots
including painting hongnam walls
we had much fun we laughed through it all
although we mai kao zai
we all say mai pen rai
still we all tried to work together

we want to thank everyone for the great time that we had
the times we shared precious we will not forget
and in the end we have made many special new thai friends
we will always treasure these friendships

yin dee tee dai roo jak ka.

(to the tune of tonghua)

2006-06-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

yeahyeah, i'm back finally.
what am i doing here with my computer anyways.
the screen just screams out at me and the light is blinding.
byebye, im kinda sian of looking at the computer.

2006-05-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

just a quick post and update before i'm whisked off
TO KRABI!
yeah, and i'll be back on the 9th.

while i'm getting all hyped up about krabi which is like 4 hrs' time(ERM, yes what am i still doing here),
my conscience is trying to be funny and is tinkering notes on my imaginary piano, creating melodies which sounds oddly like " SIAs ARE WAITING FOR YOU POK" in my brain.

arh, shut up already,
you stupid voice-at-the-back-of-my-mind.

hmm i was a bit upset just now about stuff, but i've cheered up.
or you'll see a fairly angsty post instead.

laadeedumms!
off i go!

2006-05-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

sigh, sometimes you see things you don't want to see.
and it's so much better off if you were less sensitive and view such stuff as nothing.
but you know it's not nothing, and that it is so obviously obvious that something is going on.
and although you had already braced yourself and constantly remind yourself so to get on , its painstaking to do so.

arh, the noise outside is giving me a headahe.
the conflict within me is giving me a heartache.

[/edit]
i am so put off.
finefine, i finally see what my words mean to you.
and apparently they have no lasting effects or whatsoever.
i am giving up alrds.
you, can go jump off a cliff for all i care.

2006-05-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

the long awaited JUNE HOLIDAYS are finally here.
Yes, like finally.
I have been waiting for this day since march holidays slammed its doors of me.
Although this is not a slacky holiday i ~~presume~~ AM CERTAIN, hey at least this is better than going to school rightts?

and Krabi!
haha suddenly i feel this bubbling feeling of excitement surging in me about leaving for krabi in ard 5 days' time. anws i'll have to change some bucks into thai bhat ( probably 80-100 bucks?) to go for souvenir hunting (:
hopefully shuzzy can get me some yummy stuff from Japan.
i am so gluttony.

and the start of the holidays also mark the end of sabbaticals. Although photoshop was much less strenous than flash, i felt that i've learnt more for flash ( okay maybe it's because im a utter noob at flash x.x). I was busy popping meiji's dark chocs during photoshop cus i was super tired.
But overall it has been slacky.

andand, going to other schls' canteen to have lunch is such fun!
went to hci, hc(college side) and the poolside cafe to have lunch during weds, thurs and fri.
gahh, the baked potato in hci is nice.
and mango sago!

okayy.

better go sleep.

dress-the-doll! :
http://www.freewebtown.com/sophtoo/dressthedoll.swf

it's kinda screwed though, for the shoes.

sometimes you dont need to question
or reason&justify
what you do, or why you're doing it.

since fate already have plans for you,
you should probably just accept it.
cus it will be fine.
erm yeah, it will be.

you shall learn to have faith in the omens,
and get rid of that head-overruling-heart attitude alright?

2006-05-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

sheesh it's technically a new day already and i haven't done my crunches.

actually i realised we do alot of crunches at hiphop lessons.
5 routines
then each routine is 4 x 8 = 32
32 x 5 = 160
o.0

2006-05-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

day one and two of sabbaticals have come and gone.
and it's really fabb!
doing photoshop in the morning and flash after lunch.

And we're doing Photoshop with tablet pc!
I <3 TABLET PC! I WANT TO GET ONE!
Anyways i've checked it up on cnet and apparent it's not very cheap.
So i stop probably stop dreaming.
yesyes and although the photoshop thingum we did yesterday was quite dry,
today's one was pretty nice, photo manipulation and all.
and the best thing is, i managed to get some free time to do my own photoshoppping with the absoulutely Darrrrling CS2 and draw my own designs with the tablet.

And flash is held in hci
and it's quite fascinating.
in the sense that my flash knowledge is nil
thus every single thing was very fresh and erm, fasinating, yeah.
and i realised that hci have a couple of weirdy ppl.
who do strange stuff.
i am not kidding okay!

one changed in the corridor outside the science lab (near the staircase?) ytd
grossss.
-.-

and another was like telling his friends to shhhh and was like " what impression you want to give to nanyang arh" when they were walking down the stairs (sec1 i highly suspect) and all of were lazing ard during break today.

[/edit] crap i didnt make sense just now and i also got the wrong quote. must be the after-effects of being stuck at the biopolis all afternoon.

hahaha so me, banana,hweeyanne, faustina, yonghui and cynthia were slacking at the side railings during the break, there's a class ( sec1 i suspect) who were walking down the stairs and were chatting away. then got one guy who said " talk some more? you dont want to shame yourself in front of nanyang right."
-__________________-
haha, so we cracked up while walking all the way back to the lab
the poor class having lab lessons outside the lab must think there's somethin wrong with us or sth.
cus we keep walking here and there and making quite abit of noise.

2006-05-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Random posts in the dead of the night.
I like.
It's great to have the stillness to be pensive and let thoughts wander.
Hmmhmm, I guess I need alot of space.

i am highly succeptable to diabetes, i think.
just a little fluff can get me on sugar high the whole day.

nono, please don't take that in literal meaning!
coffee works better literally,
so give me my starbucks!

2006-05-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

arhh!
the mix-up in the BBC news betwen the "guy goma" and "guy kewney" is hilarious.
i was spluttering watching the interivews
and the transcript was like "face of horror"
and it was indeed one, seriously.

2006-05-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

random musings now i suppose.
quite high & hyper now.
cus school's unoffically out.
and its LOVELY LOVELY sabbaticals next week.
which are namely advanced photoshop and flash.
ARHHHH <3
PHOTOSHOP!
and this is really a good time to brush up my flash skills
cus all i know are to enlarge, move and drop items into black holes.
x.x

today had flag day.
and it was quite productive.
cleared 3 pages of stickers/flags, erm whatever you call it.
and my tin was pretty heavy.
and flag day really made me see all kinds of people.
like those really nice one and those -_____- ones.
there's a taxi driver who was waiting for passengers and he beckoned me on his on accord to donate.
and there's one who told me to stay in the shade.

of course there are irritants
esp this heavily made-up and weirdly dressed lady
[yesyes im biased all right, but the makeup was awful]
and she was sitting at the busstop
so i approached her.
and then she actually sneered/shouted at me
"WHAT SO FREE ARH? GO AND STUDY LARH"
...

yes, yes.
i await the day she gets athritis
and does not have enough money to buy a lipstick for herself.
______

arh im repeated hei se mao yi so many many many times now.
after playing it in piano today, i became totally obssessed.
but my left hand chording sucks alot larh.
then ms wong was like so natural and beautiful.
this is utterly unfair, i tell you
i must learn the fine art of ahieving beautiful left-hand chording.
______

Next.
this is really an incoherent post.
so, crunches are really growing on me!
im doing like 3mins plus of crunches everyday
for the sake of tummy muscles.
shoo fats shoo!

cry is such a complex word.
three lettered, one syllable.
but yet so indescribable
it's really more than "salty water dripping out of your eyes"

however intricate it is,
it is universal to all of us.
everyone has a certain definition to cry perhaps,
it relates to all.

and crying is just like a overwhelm of emotions.
you're sad, you cry.
you're elated, you cry.
you're frustated, you cry.
you're grateful, you cry.
and the list can go on and on.

2006-05-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

more notes to myself:

go purchase malaria pills
do the attandace SOPs nonsense
get fulscap paper
please please dig up that newspaper before it goes to the karung guni

2006-05-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

sick.
throbbing headache
sore throat
runny nose.
and that

well done, well done.
i shall see how i will survive x.x

2006-05-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

my left eye seems to be aching really badly.
hope i don't wake up tomorrow with a sore eye or something.

and since i nearing midnight now,
i can say i have wasted another long weekend yet again.
sophia, sophia, sophia.

i'm speechless.
what's with me procrastinating and being unproductive anyways?

reminder: go dig up that newspaper with the lovely photo.

2006-05-12T11:19:00.000+08:00

THE TAG THINGY

1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, thereis no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it

#1. SERENADE ME.
#2. BE INCREDIBLY MUSICALLY, ARTISTICALLY, LINGUISTICALLY INCLINED.
#3. SONGWRITES?
#4. SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET AND MAKE ME FALL HEADS OVER HEELS.
#5. ERMMM, DANCE?
#6. ...

I should probably wake up.
If there is such a guy he wouldn't want me anyways.
I AM SO NOT ENTITLED TO THINK ABOUT SUCH STUFF.

Okay, let's try again!

#1. Loving
#2. Understanding
#3. Humourous
#4. Romance me
#5. Trusting
#6. Spends time with me
#7. Tolerates my crap
#8. Erm, serenades me, pretty please? ( I will definitely melt if this really happens)

Gender: what do you think?

My victims: ME x 8, and since I've done it, i need not do it again!
( actl, I have no idea who to tag since everyone seems to have done it. zee you can do it on your private blog if you want anyways. )

[edit/ 130506]
i just realised it left out something really important

#0. Knows me better than i do. ( which is simple, cus i don't know myself) Perhaps much more than just a "perfect lover" but a confidant, a soulmate. (:

which is rather true, cus if #0. is achieved, the #1. to #7. just naturally comes along with it, isn't i?
don't ask me about the serenading though. x.x

2006-05-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

yay, it's finally back after a quick hiatus!
haha so i think i'm rather back on track now.
anyways did anyone miss my blog while i was gone?
okay i shall stop being egoistic, seriously.

so i'm rather high considering that tml like's the last day of schl for this week.
and then there's CSM on thursday
where i will be selling icecream, so please support okays.
and aft CSM, shopping with zee then hiphop.
then friday no schl.
hmmhmm, the following days are going to look better.

and yeah, new skin!
but a makeshift one.
ard 20mins to make?
and i like this considering it's a first for me to use my own taken photo.
so yes it feels good not to be crediting ppl for their images.
cus most of the time i'm living in the fear that i'll get sued or sth.

andand, last sunday was the hciso concert.
yup so i went with zhixin since shuz couldn't make it.
haha so it was basically a surprise for some,
or rather one.

just a point to note, hmm i can say it was quite nice to go out with zhixin after such a long time and all.

as usual,at the concert i was being extremely kaypoh
and gossipy
and i think i'll make a good tabloid writer.
but i shan't elaborate.
Shuzzy you should know anyways about what i mean!
hehhs.

And i got a haircut yesterday
nice hairstyle,
but it looks disatrous on me.

so much for a quick update x.x

i think i shall end off the post with a photo.

my table & the delightfully adorable Turby!

2006-05-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

ohmann.
lots of crap to complete.
considering that other then my saturday was running about from school to tiong baru then back home.
and sunday was rushing psgl stuff in the morning, then shopping(ARH YES I AM GUILTY), getting presents for awhile then proj meeting at charis' house, i basically did nothing.
charis' houses are nicee. both the condo and the one-story one.
arhhh i'm in love with the one-story one, with the huge garden and the musty feeling of the basement.

okayokay, so today i'd better get cracking.
and if i know better, next weekend will be wasted with me procrastinating.

2006-04-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

gah i havent blogged for eons.
lets just say this week has been one long ardous journey.
and i'm really glad and relieved that the week is coming to an end soon and there will be 3 days of break.
this four days alone has been a pain already, with a series of rollercoaster rides and whirlpool of emotions taking over me.
with very eventful events too.

nownow, i had better mug for chem.
there's hiphop later
so i suppose i will only blog tml night.

2006-04-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

I NEED COFFEE.
But my mom bans me from drinking more than a cup a day x.x
and i don't want to bald anyways.

my craving for coffee is insatiable.
i shall get starbucks after hiphop on thurdays again.
i must!
even if it means not eating in school for one day to save up that 5 bucks.
heh, it's totally worth it (:

2006-04-23T12:11:00.000+08:00

gwahhh. i'm terribly bored.
just a quick update on what i feel like updating.

- FREAKY grade six preparation
- hiphop <3
- overview of the week.

2006-04-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

one day, i shall set out some time to write about everything.
okay maybe not EVERYTHING. But aplenty still.
Thoughts are swarming in my head now and the more I think, the more I worry.

RETROPECTIVE.
it's not that i enjoy it but i reflect on the past alot subconciously.
and through all this, i derive this surreal kind of bliss and some sort of heart wrenching-ness.
and when you reflect and recall, you realise things.
and you somehow find some form of utopia in the graveyard you once thought it was.
and you start hating yourself for not living the moment and finding that paradise during that time.

err, i think i've wrote too much.

anyways i've been kinda angsty nowadays.
and no, it had absolutely nothing to do with the sucky math test today.

if all of my worries were academic stuff, i suppose the superficial burden i am carrying will seem so much heavier, but then it will be so much easier to overcome it.

nowadays, i hate reflecting on my academic nonsense on my blog.
it's just really not worth it to get all worked up over it in this entry when you probably wont remember which assignment you have screwed up when you read this blog 2 years from now.Unless it's some major exams, then that's a different story.

on a final note before i get going on my academic stuff, i suppose this is what i will deem as reflective writing, not some obs reflection stuff that has to be handed in. (:

2006-04-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking about what's ahead.
maybe i should stay in bed.

oh yes i absolutely should.

2006-04-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

hiphop was gooood.
hahaha panda was great at it too.

i wanna join!
SHIQI! ZEEMAY!
if you're reading this, can you make it on thurdays night?

2006-04-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't have pried so much.
and should have just remain in lala land.
pretending that i've seen nothing,
and that im just being super sensitive to every stupid thing.
but wellwell, at least i know what's going on with the hostility, instead of getting myslef silly over it.

haha. it's totally alright if you don't trust me or what.
cus i don't even believe in myself.
and im thoroughly unhappy with myself too.

but im just plain disappointed in the fact that the stupid crap alone can do that much waivering.

okay, so back to english.

must run tomorrow.
that's all.
thankyou and goodbye.

2006-04-11T19:37:00.000+08:00

Just a quick blabber before i shower and get started on my work.
Sometimes, erm no.
MANY times, I derive my own strange philosophy from anything i see, listen or read.
Haha, philosophy. Pun not intended actually.
But yes, i do find ways to love myself more from random stuff.
I digress. So, today as I look at Shuz display name on msn, which was 'truth or dare', I thought and thought and thought. My train of thoughts wandered so much that I came to a conculsion that life is a game of truth or dare itself.

but anyway, i shan't elaborate.
it's up to you to decide what i mean, and anyways, my thoughts are too jumbled up to continue on the topic.

so,leading to the next point.
haha, so i suppose there's this thing about letter writing, and the fact that i cannot write letter.
gah. haha so i guess the hasty generalisation that females can write great letters are put down by me (:

this year, i gave my pressie to shuz without a written letter or card.

i truly admit, i am giving up in doing so!
hahaha. people, you shall receive online banners on my blog instead. watch out (:

okay, that aside.

every year,
i would try and write sth to shuz for her birthday.
and the end product is horrible.
i'll crack my brain to try and come out with some crap. and usually the crap i come out will be so incorrigible and awkward that i'll toss the paper aside, and scrawl a huge " HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on the paper and thats it.

and my birthday comes. Shuz would come armed with this wonderfully penned letter with some such thoughtful content. and really, my huge " HAPPY BIRTHDAY" seem so insincere and well... impersonal.

and another case was the angel and mortal thing last year.
I ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS THINKING OUT WHAT TO WRITE.
andand thus my relation with my mortal is not really close i suppose.

okay, i don't think if such talents are nuture or nature, but i am not blessed in the fine art of letter writing.
As I've told Shuz, my words flow so much better when i type. There's this surging sense of inspiration to write and write well when my fingers come in contact with the keys of my nice little (erh okay no so small) black keyboard.

my diaries are saved in my comp, all typed out.
my journals/planners are in the comp.
the attempts of my poems and short stories thought up in the spur of a moment are al logged here too.

i cannot seem to express what i feel on paper and pen i think.
i would just "AUGHHHHHHHH AND BLEAUGHHHHH" and dooble all over my written diaries, unable to pen down how i feel.

okay, so i am too dependant on my computer i guess.
the fact that i love how when you write something that sounds wrong, you could simply just tap the backspace key.
no need for correction tapes or cancelling. the mistake just disappears.
andand, you could just add in another paragraph anywhere you want later.
and this makes me feel so cold, being trapped and manipulated in this technology.

laadeedums.
and what am i doing now?
succumbing to it.
and still finding solace in it.

2006-04-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

andand on another rather stupid and redundant note,
i still like blasting lian ai da ren over and over again without getting sick of it.

reminder:
call up dancepointe to ask about lessons!!!
practise piano.
go figure out how to strum chords.
authorise SAC keys ( STOP PROCRASTINATING LAR)
runrunrunrunrun! must finish 2.4 in a much shorter time.

2006-04-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

i really need to get rid of this lousy mindset.
seriously, i think i'm totally lacking in discipline.
i procrastinate alot when it comes to things i dont feel like doing.
and i am only turly committed to something if i enjoy or like doing it.

the unfortunately thing is, school isn't something i enjoy at all.

so, you know.

and i spend the rest of my time dreaming about doing what i really want to do instead.

GAHHH.
DISCIPLINE SOPHIA!

And for another note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUZZYFRUZZYWOZZZY!

2006-04-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

2006-04-09T11:44:00.000+08:00

when you realise those angsty pangs are not there anymore,
and whats replacing them is this tingling bliss and amusement eveloping you;
this childish sort of wonder and mischievous i-know-sth-you-don't,
hey you are getting along just fine afterall.

2006-04-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

i really hate this kind of weekends.
the ones you spend on friday nights and on saturday gloating over the end of your ballet exams,
getting ego over some nonsense stuff (yes im still ego over it!)
and perhaps worrying about your social life.

then sunday comes and all falls on you.
the workload shit all start to appear magically.
and you'll to wonder.
"OI. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE HALF OF MY WEEKENDS ARH"
andand, you then realised you wasted it.

how lovely eh.

2006-04-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

back to this skin!
cause the pride and prejudice one wo kan bu shuang.
andand, i feel like using this.
this was my motivation to press on during the EOYS period.
cus after EOY the first thing i did was to make this skin!

ballet exams tml x.x
so dead.
shall finish my hmwk
then go stretching!

2006-04-05T18:47:00.000+08:00

haha, been fetching my brother home from xnps quite often lately.

and for some unknown reason, he is always late, leaving some time for me to slug around and rot away.
of course, to reminiscence on...things, too.
lately, i have been kind of recounting some of my past events. perhaps not the exact version of what happened, just what that i can remember.
as for my secondary 1 and 2, i realised i need to recall much as they are in this blog or somewhere in my computer.
however, one thing i regretted not doing in primary school was to keep a diary diligently. and it's really kind of sad not to remember what you have done. actuallt, i wrote a veryveryvery long post about what i could still remember last year in this blog, but some stupid error occured and it wasnt able to publish and got deleted. come to think of it, maybe it was fated afterall. but i think for now, i shall take the time to recall bits and pieces of this chapter in my life, as im moving on to the next.

okay, so back to reminiscence. You know, the place in which we used to be dismissed...shuz and i would pull sheryl's bag and start chionging out of school like some mad people. (and for a rather random note, i still remembered siti teaching ph how to braid using the strings on the shivagami's bag.)

haha we could always return to where it was and start tugging at sheryl's bag to chiong out of school and play with her duckie, but you know undeniably that it could never feel the same again.

haha so what's left are the figments of memories that you could either hold so dearly too or just chuck it aside.

im not saying whichever is better. sometimes its nice to be able to retrieve your memories once in awhile and recollect on them. but don't press on to them too hard, it may make it seem that you're dwelling on the past.

me? let's say i still enjoy thinking about them occasionally and wondering would things be the same if some other event had happened or sth.

haha, this is quite a long post as compared to my recent ones.

2006-04-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

alot of realization dawned on me today.

firstly, i think i really cannot live without my mp3 player. i was practically rotting without my neeon today on the bus and mrt. the last time the neeon went bonkers i kept using my old white one too. goodness.

secondly, the painful revelation that my ballet exams is in FOUR THREE TWO ONE days is utterly freaking me out.
I CANNOT DO GLISSADES DEVELOPPE AND PIROUETTES IN CENTER.

lastly, my flu isnt curing at all.
from obs till one.
one month.
gah what's wrong with me?!

lian ai da ren is veryveryvery nice!
listening to it over and over agn (:

2006-04-03T04:39:00.000+08:00

OH NO.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN.
I AM SO DEAD.
AND FRUSTATED.

2006-04-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

i need to write this.
cus im in deep shit.
i can't believe it.
but this is the first time i will have to analyse my ballet syllabus

barre thankfully it's okay

center
port de bras okay
battements tondu okay
adage SHIT. arabesque and developpe are horrors.
glissades SHIT.
pirouette SHIT.
Saute LEAN FORWARD.
allegro I okay
allegro II okay
Balances FACE THE CORRECT SIDE.
grande allegro LOOK AT YOUR HANDS. AND SAHSAY BEFORE EXTENDING RIGHT LEG
tarantella SHIT.

Free Movement
relaxation o.0
triple runs and spins think of poses, please.
flying hops okay. face front please.

Character
gallops okay. please look at your hands.
pivot and half-break PLEASE BEND DOWN.
step and clap with gallops okay.
holubetz die.
dance okay. please get timing and place right.

im just talking to myself.
not sane.

2006-04-02T10:02:00.000+08:00

there's a reccurring reminder of my lack of social life.
but i guess i'm already immune.
maybe im truly getting along.

haha and there's not much use wallowing in such situations.
when's theres better things to indulge in.

like the stupid ballet exams in erm 5 days?
i should probably worry about that instead yeah?
and i'm going to take hiphop after the exams.
and probably take up drumming in the nov/dec hols.
yes, life is looking better already.

'I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.'
- Savage Garden's Affirmation

ooh i like this phrase.
afterall, many people practise philosophy! (:
arh. lame joke, please ignore.

haha and i shall have a shoutout to shuzzy:
DON'T DELETE YOUR BLOG OKAYYS!

2006-04-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

gah
i'm sick of this blogskins alrds.
guess i find comfort in making blogskins.

so, i shall download some nice wingdings
find some inspiration and plan them out.
then get cracking on pressing homework.
shall blog more perhaps later at night.

2006-03-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

feeling so put off by myself these few days.
gah, i like so siansiansiansian this week.
compared to last week which was considerably productive, i have been so slacky this week.

and i have been sleeping. and sleeping.

i am terribly silly.
i woke up from my nap today to take dinner.
and for some unknown reasons, i went to brush my teeth first.
so i was like brushing and brushing before i realised it was not morning -.-
so rubbish can.

2006-03-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

wellwell, plate tectonics is an interesting topic.
i've heard 2 analogies.
i have another one.
but it's ridiculously pessimistic.

sometimes i wonder if im really cut out for all that i'm doing.
or is it better if i took the backseat and enjoyed the scenery.

arh wells.
i guess i should continue on.
i don't want to look back in life finding that I've done nothing different in my secondary school life. i would rather look back and know that it have been at least slightly meaningful.

but now all the lost time is taking a toll on my results and sleep.
gah.

2006-03-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

GAH.
I HATEHATEHATE GLISSADES&ADAGE.

the fact that i cannot do a decent developpe in center really irks me.
and my left leg is super weird when i do glissades
my pirouettes are trash too.

i am so dead.
2 more lessons to go only.
i most probably need a miracle to get through all these.

2006-03-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

zhoujielun's feng is up!
after much deliberation.
cus i wanted to put click five's good day or dbsk songs.
but they wont fit the skin template.

i got quite abit of zhoujielun music scores now! <3
and feng played on the piano is much nicer than shan hu hai!
and i got some liangjingru ones too.
this should be plenty to last me for a long time.

anyways, i enjoy writing in riddles.
although they say subtlety is so last century,
i love this masked form of expression!
the wordplay and all the analogies!
besides, i cannot ever be candid.

2006-03-26T08:08:00.000+08:00

i feel so ridiculed.
and it seems like i'm being thrown back and forth, being manipulated subconciously.
my fault?
partly i suppose.

so, i'm leaving!
don't even bother to say goodbye to my retreating back.
as i throw down the white flag.

for good?
YES.

i have better things to worry about in the first place. (:

2006-03-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

new skin!
pride&prejudice!
took around an hour to source, photoshop,code and upload.
which is actually quite slow.
gah.

anyways, i don't think it's very much up to my satisfaction.
the photoshopping looks overly-minimal and slipshot.
but this is better than nothing.

andand, i decided i needed to treat myself after doing the wretched chem website.
which took me more than twenty hours to source for the information,paraphrase,photoshop pictures,code and upload.
sleeping at around 3am for four consecutive nights ( no afternoon nap, if you're wondering)
and no, its not completed yet.
this is ridiculous.

since im lazy to add in the 'others'
here are the credits first!

scans- www.secret-obsession.com
icons- http://community.livejournal.com/bellezzadiamore

im terribly lazy to make my icons this time.

so, off i go to get back to work.

2006-03-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY TO THE WEEKENDS.
PRESS ON, SOPHYY!

gah, my stupid flu/cough isn't recovering at all.
must be all the stupid late nights.
suddenly, sleeping at 12 becomes a luxury.

arh wells, it's only for this week,
and it's coming to an end soon.
one more latenight, and i can sayy my warmest goodbye to the stinking chemistry website.

and i think my tagboard is seriously dead.
anws i think it's alright.
the past few posts i have been babblering to myself anyways.
and i doubt anyone can understand given my random and incoherent sentence structure.

gahgahgah.
now off to work!

2006-03-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

i barely believe that this 'aging' night is as dark as december in the snowy countries.

and whats ahead, which is tomorrow ( make that today, its almost 2 a.m.) , will be a different colour.
oh yes, waking up to a morning and school.
so yes it is a different colour- it gets darker.

i swear ONE DAY, ~~WE'RE~~ I'M GONNA GET SO HIGH.

but now, i shall bent down low and be buried under my piles of work.

2006-03-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Weekends! COMEEEEEEE.
I cannot wait for weekends to come.
It marks the end of this hectic one.
(and perhaps mark the start of another one?)
(Gah, i shall not be so pessimistic)

anyhow, i will get a a break.
abeit a small one, but still a break nonetheless.

but i'll be missing ballet unfortunately.
thanks to the stupid hsk thing.
andand, i owe the ballet teacher overdued fees.

okay. must get back to chemistry sia.
strangely, the coding was rather fast and successful.
it is the adding of the content that sucks totally.

shall go get coffee now.
xD

2006-03-20T18:47:00.000+08:00

arh i finally got hold of wanglihong's kiss gdbye piano scores.
<3!

when i heard the promoter play it on the keyboard thing in the creative warehouse sale i was like thinking it was super nicee larh.
(and he played jiang nan too. super nicee too!)

i shall have the motivation to learn all 3 versions!

2006-03-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

IT'S ALMOST ELEVEN.
I STILL HAVE TRUCKLOADS OF WORK.
AND IM STILL PROCRASTINATING.

seriously la, me going to sleep is so much more productive.

2006-03-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

gah.
pootypoothead just played yue ding out of the blue.
no scores, no nothing. (okay, no something)
GAH WHEN CAN I DO THAT.

i feel like a miserable grade 6 exam taker.

anws, got my character shoes!
and it's a jawdropping 45bucks.
goodness.
haha im not used to the high-heeled-ness.

andand, i havent went bowling for ard 4 months le.
booboo me.

if any ny bowlers are reading this,
JIAYOUS for the B.divs!

2006-03-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

ohno im starting to like dbsk.
haha this is shuz and pootypoothead's fault!!!
lol.

2006-03-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

oh yes.
my limegreen became red!
and the crowd at the creative warehouse sale was terrible.
rawr. the line was like super long.
and i wanted to get it to fix my neeon.
and they kept telling me that to get to the customer service area i have to go quene up too.
squeezing with the crowd and all.
please! i'm just trying to just my neeon fixed, for crying out loud.

anyways there wasn't much to get.
cus the line for payment was looooong.
and the stuff i wanted to get were kinda snapped up alrds.

2006-03-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

haha, yesterday i went to wallet shop and saw this pencilcase with these words:

oh shit. i'm dead. i'm like so dead can.

and immediately i started spluttering with laughter.Although myuk stuff are targetted at teens' attitude and stuff,i never was able to identify with them personally. But these words are SOO ME when im panicking.

And i felt like buying it just to humour myself.

hmm, if today was my last, i would be very, very busy.

2006-03-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

my darling had its demise this afternoon.
and im mourning.

wellwell, off to the creative center first thing in the morning.
and i hope my darling will be alright.

2006-03-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

hmm i starting to like lj alot.
maybe i'lll shift!

arh no lar,
i think i'll just create an account there.
-sophitified- holds too much crazy memories here.
all adolescence mood swings;
from the angsty to the crazy.

2006-03-16T11:14:00.000+08:00

i just re-read all my older posts,
and the content of all post almost felt all the same.

me feeling elated at something superficial.
me wallowing at my desolute aplenty of times.
me feeling remorseful over that riduculous matter from last year june's post till now.

haha, this kind of shows my lack of growth and maturity, eh?

2006-03-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

and guess what,
today is one of the days i feel that i'm totally antisocial and much of a loner.
today is one of those days i become sophia the hermit.
gah.

2006-03-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

haha, today is one of the days where i get so bored by everything i start stoning away.
i'm feeling restless and i'm itching to move
but when i get started something then i lose interest almost immediately.
gah.

the computer feels so uninteresting,
i banged on the piano for awhile just to relieve that pounding guilt in me.
tv's not fun.
my brother is being such a irritating pain in the neck.

and the only thing i found joy in doing was to read a princess diaries-like book in the afternoon and doing weird releves and pirouettes around the house.
fat hippo dancing around.

haha, and did i mention i like to close the flap of the toilet bowl seat and sit there stoning?
arh, okay.
unwanted unecessary information.
you all must be thinking that i'm sick in my head.

haha and yes! i can imagine Shuzzzzy going ' You're random.' on my tagboard alreadys.
but i guess i like blogging randomly about my random quirky habits nowadays since life's such a bore.
for me, that is.

and holiday is so not appealing.
hmm yes ph i kinda agree with you but not to the extreme of tagging " HOLIDAY SUCKS" on the tagboard.

monday woke up early to go to school;
no sleep
tuesday flew out of the house thrice;
no rest
wednesday went to school and procrastinated the whole afternoon;
no work done.

and everything i feel like going out to like bowl or something,
my ~~concious~~ conscience (arh,horrible spelling skils) will be gnawing at me for the pile of undone homework.
but even if i stay at home im getting nowhere too.

andand,
my layout.
shuz's layout.
clearing out the junk in my compt.
cleaning up the junk in the neeon.
and of course,
THAT.
It's been more that one and a half years.
How much more cowardly can I get.
ohdear, im getting so remorseful and yet im doing nothing.
die.

2006-03-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

little simple things that make me happy!

Sitting at the block 500+ hawker market eating douhua by myself!
Lying on my bed listening to music before falling asleep!
Walking at night feeling the wind tousle my hair!
Spotting snippets of beautiful sceneries in our urbanised and concrete jungle!
Appropriate usage of simple and non-bombastic words fitting snugly to form thought provoking sentences!
Simple lyrics that make so much more sense!

really, you can see that i am that bored to conjure up all these.

2006-03-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

i'm just blogging because im bored.
and somehow i feel like changing my url
or just my blogskin.

haha but must do my chemistry website layout thing first.
o.0

2006-03-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

right, friday have to go the creative fair and get my neeon stick-ons.

finefine, i shall stop the ridiculous and incoherent postings i have and get to math.

2006-03-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

then i cannot wait for ballet exams to be completed.
then it would be hip hop lessons!
yay.

oh yes, have to practise piano too.

2006-03-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

i feel like sleeping.
but must rush math.
must must must.

anyways tml got math lessons.
then perhaps i will go orchard to get my characters shoes.
yay <3
black sleek new high heeled ones.
im so sick of the black low heel one.
cannot break and click!

then flag raising trng on tues.
then evening there's ballet!
okay whats with the enthusiasm.

then weds is math lessons again.

thurs going to cousin house i suppose.

and friday, perhaps, is free.
maybe i shall go bowling then (:

thats about my hols.
how interesting.

2006-03-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

i am still suffering from obs withdrawal symptoms.
sniff.
i want to walk through camp 2 again.
reliving the buzz and hustle all everyone packing their stuff
or them walking leisurely after the showers before nightfall.
i want squat and crowd around the cooking pot eating cold and half cooked noodles.
i want to kayak (but not from pulau ubin to sembawang i suppose)
i want to absail! and fulfill my commitment statements.
which are what i want to do 'tommorow'
one was particularly important; to stop procrastinating. to stop stressing over matters and waste time but not do anything about it.

i really regret not doing journal entries on the days of the obs now.
it's really nice to be able to look back about what you felt on that day.
rawrr.

i suppose there will not be any detailed journal entries about this obs as i think i will pen it on paper and put it together with my certificate and photo.

arrrughhh.
yes, stop procrastinating.
i swear i shall have the guts to settle that by march holidays.

2006-03-10T16:40:00.000+08:00

BACKBACKBACK!
although i rather miss camp 2 alot.
aurrgh.

anywayyys,
OBS ROCKS.
AMUNDSEN ROCKS.
MELISSA ROCKS.

arhh. more later.
i'm lazy.

2006-03-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

what i did when i should've been packing for OBS just now:
watch pride and prejudice. (:

what i am doing when i should be packing for obs now:
blogging.

rawrr. there is seriously something wrong with me.
maybe i missing all my black boxes before i even leave.

anws pride and prejudice's nice!

2006-03-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

im boredd.
OBS is tomorrow, and i have no idea if im dreading it or looking forward to it.
And i have no idea about the march holidays too.
i mean, we have to go back to school and meet up for projects too.
arugh.

things to do during march hols:
- errmm study? okays that's there for moral correct-ness. i dont mean it i suppose.
- bangbangbang the piano
- go town to shopp and get character shoes.
- jog o.0
-go bowling, i should okays! i believe i've become a gutter monster.
- SLEEP.
- maplemaplemaple.

and then there are things i want to do, like go iceskating and k-box.

ergh, sometimes i tend to dread holidays as i'll become very penisve and get depressed and such.
oh wells, i doubt i have the time to do so this time.

rawrr. haha shuzzy dont be evill while im gone alright.
haha tag my board daily okay?

2006-02-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

arh, can i like drop school.
and do the things i so want to do instead.

hiphop and drumming! <3

and alotalotalotalot more.

on a rather random note, i really really like coming home early just like the good ol' days of sec1 and sec2. i've manage to cook, read fanfiction/fictionpress, jog all within the span of 4pm to 6pm.

must come home early much often.
i insist.

2006-02-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

shitcrap, i think im really falling into self delusion.
yes zeemay, if dead is what you define your so-called "desolute" situation now,
i will be joining the ranks of the dead.
hah, please don't argue with me on that.
i don't think im being very paranoid.

2006-02-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

things to complete by this week:

FAIL MATH.
FAIL CHINESE.
FALL INTO SELF DELUSION.

2006-02-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

more than 2 long years,
and I'm still totally obsessed with DHer.
weird but true.
<3

fanfiction's fabbb!

2006-02-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

happy belated v'day.
i was adoring our chemistry on that very day.
the fiery passion of the blood red book.

o.0

oh neverminds.

anyways i need a break.
i think that SIAs are serious mistakes made by the school.
they do no good.
and i repeat, the do no good.
the horrors of SIAs.

erk.

2006-02-12T10:12:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO CHANGE BLOGSKIN LEH.
but i haven't even got the chance to like do it up.
and honestly, i'm pretty tired of the l'amour one that i did halfway cus i got a idea for another blogskin.
stupid procrastinating, picky and indecisive me.

and i haven't finished shuz coding thing too!
and it's been 12 days since i lamented on that.

and and, I desperately need to go out.
bah, my non-existance of social life.

did i mention i am rather broke too.
krabi, new shoes and all, piano exams fee.
x.x

okays so i'm like rambling away.

argg. what am i talking about.
GOOD MORNING SOPHIA!
chem test on wednesday.
stinky chinese test.
crazy lot of SIAs proposals.

i might as well forget about what i posted up there.
now now, mug!

2006-02-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

who has ryan cabrera's photo???
as in the song o.0
haha yepp yepp.

I'm super obsessed with it.
<3

2006-02-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

Must change skin soon.
By the end of this week.
argg.
my skin and shuzzy coding thing is both hanging there.
Shuz, eh paiseh paiseh.

L'Amour! heree i come.

2006-01-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

oh yes, thinking back about the wine post...

when you reach this dire state where life is too knotty for you to handle.
you suddenly don't even want the fruity wine.

you just need a drink of water.
the scent of water never felt better.

REALLY. I shall stop crapping.

*Sophitified*

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